Scared to death

Ok. I am willing to admit it. I'm scared to death. As exciting as it is to be leaving in 16 days..I am scared.  It's not that I'm scared of Haiti or the people or any diseases. I'm scared of telling my youth on Sunday. I'm scared something may happen at home. I'm scared of the unknown. I know that I shouldn't be scared that God has something great in store for me but honestly I'm kind of scared about that. This is going to change my life and I know it. I know that I will not be the same after this 6 months. That is scary to me. Exciting but scary.

I talked to two people in my life today who are extremely excited for me. One my friend Teresa. She was so encouraging and supportive and just excited for me. The other my old youth pastor Shelly. We hung out and went to the movies and just talked which was so fun. Which if you have the chance go see the movie To Save a Life. It's awesome! She is totally supportive of me and it meant a lot to just talk because of how much she has been involved in my life and honestly probably made more of an impact after she was no longer my youth pastor. She is a friend and a mentor to me. Which if you have the chance go see the movie To Save a Life. It's awesome!

On top of being scared I'm sad. I will miss some important things during the 6 months that I will be gone. Not only events but some people....


-My grandma's 90th birthday. I've not been here for the past 10 years due to different mission trips. I thought this would be the one I am here for so we could do a big celebration. I will have to join in from skype now. I mean 90 is a huge deal. She has alhezimers so I know I won't be blessed with many more but shes always the one saying shes so proud of me for doing church work. So I will continue to make her proud.

-Gwyn's 18th Birthday, High School Graduation and leaving for college. This is a girl in my youth group who is just amazing. I will miss all of my kids but Gwyn has been the one that has entered high school when me and my buddy Jared started volunteering and she will graduate this June. She is an amazing Young Lady of God who will do GREAT things for the Kingdom. 

-My lil sister (well basically) Jordyn will be turning 16 on May 25th. She will get her license and I hope everyone stays off the roads! Just Kidding. She is a beautiful young lady who has been my lil sister for a while now. Her and ASHLEY! These two girls are very special to me and it is so sad to see them grow up! But man... So glad I don't have to drive them EVERYWHERE now!


-All of my YOUTH KIDS. I have the most amazing youth group at Deep Creek and my lil people are just equally as cool. I know that I was going to have to leave on April 10th but I wouldn't have been in another country. I know they will keep in touch.... they better! Hopefully we will be able to skype since they will have the MAC at the church and I will hopefully have a new netbook in Haiti. I hope they realize how awesome they are and how much I will ALWAYS be there for them! No matter what country I am in. 


-My Friends. I love them! We may not see each other all the time but at least a phone call or a text is exchanged. My friends are amazing and I will miss them dearly. Not only the ones my age but the ones I have in the Yearly Meeting. I have been blessed with friends of all ages and they better keep in touch on facebook, skype, or email. 


-My family. My cousin Paige will graduate high school and I will miss that. She's a cool girl. Her and Natalie her sister are my movie buddies at my grandma & grandpa's after family meals. I will miss eating Easter Supper with them and just learning the new family drama. So they better keep me in the know! and maybe we can get a webcam for Nanny's computer and you all can skype me! 


-My mommy. I love my mom and it will be hard to be so far away. She's helped me through so much in life. She' is a good mom and I know that the next 6 months will be hard for her. So ya'll be nice and call her and check in on her! 
P.S. Mom.... be nice to miss LuLu and Rascal. They will need some extra loving while I'm gone! 


I'm sure that there are a million other things that I am leaving out and I may talk about them later. But right now I just need your prayers that my support comes through and that God's protection is over my mom and she is so nervous about me going and He protects me and guides me in the way He wants me to go. I pray that He gives me peace now as I make arrangements and go on this new exciting journey! 


Grace & Peace,
DB -in archdale for the night.... (sorry no rhyme for archdale)